Friends Forever

Friends. True 'til the end' friends. Best girlfriends that I can confide in. I've never had that. I don't have a group of friends or a few close friends. I was never asked to be in a group and when I was, I was the 3rd wheel or 5th wheel. All of the feelings of me crying to my mother when I was a child because I didn't have any friends have come flooding back today for some reason. We grow apart as we get older, but I never had anyone to grow apart from. Nor had a one true best friend that had my back without expecting something in return. It makes it harder when all I really want is someone to be my partner when I have to work so hard to find and never seem to quite find while others find it so easily.